same weather different feeling

I got back from brooklyn to Long Island, quicker than I expected, and the sun was beating down on me through the sunroof, and it felt warm, like from another season, and for a moment I thought it was quite a beautiful day. I was feeling a bit inspired and trapped, as if fate is testing me again these days. And I never would have thought a year ago that I would be here in NY, knowing it will break me at some point again, like it always has in the past. But in the mean time I can breath and smile and not think about tomorrow. For now.

There is no kick in my step today.. even with the sun shining. But their is a push in the road.