job and jobless

emotions are running wild and i dont know how the snowball effects keeps rolling and rilling until it explodes in to an avelanch. Conversations can be wierd and make things weirder for no reason. seperation anxioty exist and it eats me up inside. I need to stop taking the xanax I think. I will explode. ~Today we had a new girl come to the office. after 5 minutes she got up and went to the periptero and never came back,,,, when will i have the nerve to do that?